another day =(

My life’s now a mess!!!!I’ll try to get up as I always had but my legs are now weak, it makes me mad.I am super duper depressed right now.My mentally is strong, but emotionally weak.What should i do.I try so hard to crack those thing outta my head but end up,nothing ever changes.I am silly, I thought everything will be just fine but I'm so Wrong,I hated,I hated,I hated.Now after this, you guys will probably see me as a freak.I am not whining or whatsoever. I just think I should post something personal in the blog once in a while. It is more like a letter to myself.
I hated myself,I hated subang,I hated lied.I hated everything that makes me feel discouraged.Yes, I am a compulsive liar. I lied. It's not a habit, it's a freaking problem.Sorry for being a liar,especially for my beloved grandma and dad.If u were my closed friends,u'll know about it.But I am here to tell u guys that i will never ever talk about this anymore,am no revealing!!!!Its my own secret and I'm still struggling.How to survive you tell me how to survive with this situation. Urghh!I wish i could turn back the time.But i don't believe in miracles at this fucking moment.I am gradually lost my self-confidence.Please come back to me,i beg u.i beg u.i beg u.